I can’t say anything

The silence of the room beats in the ear. All is dark, gloomy, except for the playful soft fire in the hearth. They stare into each-other’s eyes. Hers, green, lively, surrounded by a mist of black hair, look deep into his…cold, dark, intriguing. He’s hiding, she thinks. But from what?
-Music!
He takes his hand from her cheek and moves towards the fireplace.
-Eh?! Sorry?
She shakes her head as if to come out of a trance.
-Music…do mind if I play some?
-Oh, sure. Please do.
He picks up an acoustic guitar and gently checks its tune. A, A, A…D, D, D…hums in concordance.
-Seems fine. Let’s see if I remember it…
A mellow sound tears the silence thin. The chords come easy, slow, one after the other, without hurry; A minor, then C, D minor and G. The lyrics…he remembers them all too well. The progression of chords triggers an overwhelming feeling of emptiness. He gently starts to sing.

There are letters and make-up,
And the mountains are between us.
Closed files, sad windows,
And she’ll never come back again…

At the dawn of absolute winter,
Kiss my eyes and forehead bitter.
And then submerge and be forgotten,
With the dawn of a new season.

At the sound of the words she falls into infinity’s arms. Memories past return with wild hastiness, a mixture of feelings scrambles her brain. She cannot help winding in tune with the music. So relaxing, so clam, so perfect…as is he. His words are a thousand arms, hugging her at once, a thousand lips kissing hers, a thousand souls merging with hers. It feels unbearable, yet she welcomes the feeling, embraces it, and ultimately becomes it. She lights up a cigarette. The smoke goes in, filling the lungs and clouding her mind. She tastes the tobacco’s sweetness, lets it linger inside her chest. I feel nothing and everything. I love him. This is what it feels like…does he know? She stares at the boy next to her, playing his guitar and singing what she feels is a song made for them.

And I can’t say anything
Into infinity you go
Farewell or so-long
You shine, only not,
To our good-bye…

She lies still, devouring every note with her very soul. She becomes the lyrics. His voice is that of destiny, speaking implacable. She hums in tune, letting go of everything, surrendering her entire being to him.

Why should I say good-bye?
There’s no reason for it.
“Good-bye” asks for its rights.
I’ve lost you for eternity.
And from me to you
My words will turn to ice
How to call you, I don’t even know
My love, my lost, my life…

She stands up from the chair and puts her forehead against his, noses touch, lips just an inch away. I love you, she whispers. He gently strokes his hand in her hair, driving it away from her face and stares at her. I know…, he replies and pulls her closer. A kiss…of ice and flame, of myth and reality, of lust and love. Silence fades. Only their love remains. Eyes wide shut. Lips, hands, bodies, minds, souls, they all merge. Like a river it flows, their kiss, streaming into the horizon, defatigable, to where the sea ends. They stand with arms tightly around each-other: a mixture of flesh and spirit, sharing a pair of lives. She lays her head in his lap. Where the sea ends are her lips, delicate and pale. In the light of the fire, tears begin to shine softly, waking the dryness of his eyes. He kisses her again. Luminous beings are we, she says. …not this crude matter, he answers and gently touches her body: soft, warm, peach-colored. Everything I’ve ever done, I did it for you, he gently whispers and kisses her forehead. Anything that might be special in me…is you. Just the words she wanted to hear. I need you to complete me… She feels restored and looks into his eyes once more. Now, filled with tears, they seem to brighten. They’re no longer cold and dark. No, she replies. You need to complete me… She takes her soul and buries it in his. He closes his eyes, void of all but love for her, embracing her spirit with his.

Now, where there were two, is only one.